It's Not You, It's Me

Dear blog,

I think it's time we stop seeing each other.

I'm sure this isn't a surprise to you. You've noticed how distant I've been...increasingly distant. Longer and longer between visits. Less to say.

I think we're just going through the motions at this point. Our conversations are just about surface things...who did what and when. No pictures. We've gone from pouring hearts out and daily updates to posts that always begin with "sorry I've been away so long..."

We shouldn't feel guilty. We've tried to rekindle things over and over. I've made pronouncements of "blogging. every. day." and you've spiced things up in the template department. For awhile, things are good again, like the old days. But then, it's back to status quo.

It's like we're just roommates.

Don't worry - there's no one else. The Face.Book and I are just casual acquaintances, nothing more. All those other social media? I don't even know how to use them.

No, I think it's time we face facts. I just can't give you what you need and deserve.

But we've had a good run, yes? Almost six years ago we started this up and things were amazing. We were so connected. There was so much to say...we'd stay up all night talking. So much to share. All the struggles with moving and trying to figure out a new life in a new city.

I suppose you could say that I'm fully transplanted now. I've gone from a bewildered mama with no job, no status, no friends, no house, and no church to a typical mom/wife/woman - kids in the groove, an awesome job, permanent residency, a network of folks, a cute little house on the hill, and a loving church family.

And I suppose that's why I don't have much to say ever. Life isn't boring. But it's just life. And I find more joy in living it than I do recording it.

I won't say "let's just be friends." That's not fair to you - watching and waiting and hoping I'll pop in now and again. No, this is goodbye. I won't be posting anymore. But I'll leave you up. It was good while it lasted and I don't want to forget the fun times we had.

Thanks for always being there. And to my readers (all two of you)? Thanks for everything. It was fun shooting these posts off into the great interwebs beyond and know that friends were still reading and caring about us even after all these years.

Signing off,

Peitricia Mae

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